Crushed

Crushed….
Crushed….
Crushed in the heart and mind
Were you even thinking that night?
I can't leave those memories behind
This wasn't supposed to happen
This wasn't the plan of mine
As we sat together on the bed in my room
We were brothers in bond for life
And we wrestled every night

Crushed….
Crushed….
Underneath you my breath was high
The scent, the smell, that drug of mine
As your eyes looked at me from up in the sky
Heavens light was in your sight
Hell's fire in my mind
The way your hands closed around my arms
The way knee touched my thigh
The way you looked in my eyes

Crushed….
Crushed….
I fought with half my heart and hips
As your lowered your head to mine
I shall never forget the feeling of your lips
Or the feeling of your hands on my face
I will treasure the feeling of your bare chest against me
As I go to sleep each night
The way we lay together in the twilight
Two boys who came naked as men

Crushed….
Crushed….
When you showed up to my wedding
You came to the room where I prepared
I thought of you standing there next to me crying
As I watched my wife walk down the isle
I could still taste your lips as she kissed me
I could still feel your face on mine
I could feel your body and your mind
I haven't loved anyone since you

Crushed….
Crushed….
As I clipped the strip of newspaper with your name
I gasped and sobbed with all my heart
My little son came in and did the same
That night I told him the story
Of two young princes who loved each other
How they fought dragons and witches and evil kings
I told him how they stayed together through everything
Their story ended in twilight